Long time no post... Haiz... things are not going right.... I dun know if it's me or what... Maybe i'm just over paranoid.... I turst her.... I told her... But she doesn't seem to care... Her response was like... ya..... Not at all interested... Or maybe it's just me over paranoid again. Now maybe I know why her bills are exploding... Msgs after msgs... Calls after calls.... And guess what? They're not from me.... It seems now a days she has more to talk to her friends then me....

Y get so paranoid? friends only what~ Lamer... Ya just tat they're all guys... Guys so what? She say just friends only what~ Freaking lame.... Get a life la Daryl Giam Hong Piao...

Month after month I help her with her phone bills.... Maybe I should just let her settle it herself.... But... What the fark.... when the time comes again... I can't bare to see her like tat and probably just help her out again....

When out with me, she stares blankly into the sky and when I ask her what's wrong... her replies are forever "nothing"... True? Or me paranoid again? Maybe true la... Nothing to say to me...

To any of my friends reading this... Really need your help... Is there something wrong with us or am I just over paranoid... Are we forcing this relationship... She told me when she said "forever" she meant it, but her actions tell me otherwise...

Why tell me "YOU ARE MINE & I AM YOURS FOREVER" and ask me questions like... "What if we really break?"..... Nv thought of this question coz I always thought tat we're meant for each other.... Guess I'd better come up with an answer to this question soon...

Why tell me "YOU ARE MINE & I AM YOURS FOREVER?" and have nothing to talk to me? I didn't picture my forever to be like this...

I love her so much, does she know? Or izzit too much that she can't even feel it now? I told myself over and over again... I'm sure things will work out... But I'm not so sure now...

Maybe is just my fault laz... I'm too busy getting tired because of school... School give me this kind of timetable oso my fault ah? Oso can la... Maybe lorz... That's why no time... Then need company mahz... Who else can I blame... Maybe I should just blame the school for giving me this kind of timetable to make myself feel better?

She'll prob be sleeping late tonight again... Talking to her friends on the phone or smsing them or chatting with them online or going out supper with them.... But what the hell.... Friends only what... Let her go lorz...

To stupid Daryl.... Leave these aside and worry about your freaking presentation tomorrow morning....

I'll try... I'll most probably worry bout both problems.... Dumbass....

Damn sianz.... Final year project... Guess what, I have a powerpoint presentation tmr and I haven even start preparing.... Wtf...

Time to go burn my freaking mid night oil...