Money problem.... Relationship problem....

My life is totally screwed up now....

Any more problems wanna hit me now?!

Just hit me.... Blow my mind out with troubles....

When was the last time i smiled and laugh till my heart's content?

I suddenly lost it.... I can't remember.... I remember more of the bad times in my life then the good ones.... Arn't there any happy memories left for me???

I wake up in the morning aimlessly... I put on fake smiles and laughter... I just have no motivation in life now... It's like a total stand still...

Problems come one after another... When I try to solve one... Another one comes along... I'm too tired... I just don't care anymore....

Who want's to talk to me now???

Haiz... I'm quiting my job soon... Need to get another one asap. Best be 6 -10 kind of job. Haiz....

Who understands me.... No one.... Even I dun understand myself....

Rubbish... I'm trash... Talking trash...

To her: I hope we can really withstand the test of time.... Though this test failed once... I miss.... Everything....

LOL... Change management! Just learnt during comm skills... WTH! School started... Projects and assignments already coming in.... SIAN!

Here's what about change management... lolz... In change there's a cycle.

1st - Contentment: You're happy with the way things are and wish it will stay like that forever... (*Unfortunately... Realitly is not like that.)
2nd - Denial: Can't believe this is actually happening to oneself, so the person will refuse to face reality.
3rd - Confusion: You try to cope with change and question yourself. Wild thoughts and many questions will appear in your head, suspicions kick in. (*I think i've been in this room for far too long.)
4th - Renewal: You start to accept the change and adapt to it.

And the cycle repeats itself should another change come.

hahaaaa... So where am I? Guess... I'm in the 3rd room I guess... the 2nd and 3rd room is not a healthy room to be in... One should get out of it asap.

So, the only solution to get out of the 3rd room is to make a decision and when it's made, gotta adjust back.. And the cycle repeats to till the next change..

WAhahahaaaa... recap what I learnt in comm skills...

Anyway... crap...

Last nigt went to Zouk with eh... Jeremy and his girl, his friend, Adrain, Darren and his girl, Mei Mei! LOL! It was packed like sardines... No space to move. Then got sianz... So headed to Plush... WOOT! The music was good! We met Andy there and he was damn high! with 2 girls!!! LOL!

She was there too.. As usual.. Drunk...

Today workin!!!! *I'm so dead... Kenaa spotted... I'm gonna get it today. LOL!

*I guess we should just leave the way things are. Since you have not had your fun... The ring will be kept with me.. I hate seeing you drunk, Dun like it when u club all the time. Maybe the most stressful one will be the amount of guys around you... Anyway.. I think you know who are the guys...

*Our relationship is not complicated... It's the kind of excuses that makes it complicated...

*When you're ready... Not too long... I hope...